BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE

Friday, May 18, 2007

i dont like it when my lower eyelid twitch. i think it is cursed. i dont like it either that i'm super superstitious... that's why, i choose to be optimistic in things. cuz the lower eyelid will twitch in some day or another. what can i do? i perfectly know that a bad thing will happen... but i dont want to mull over it. so ... i become super OPTIMISTIC lorh. i become super HAPPY lorh. i become super UNAFFECTED lorh. i become super FEELING-LESS lorh. hence my non-angry non-sad non-pissed attitude.... yet ppl still DARE to complain about this! ah yo~~~ give me a break or stuff my mouth with bread...

tsk tsk

i think its 99% confirm i'm going to northwestern.

i will miss home alot! i know i will. no 'benefits / advantages / yi-pee i'm going to US' sort of thoughts actually pop up into my mind. what's wrong with me? i'm feeling rather NORMAL, left my destiny to FATE... God has been very kind, He left me with a single path, He block all the rest of the pathways... EITHER He is kind to make me less troubled by the thought of choosing which path, OR He really want me to enter this PATH 101 - must be a challenging ordeal then. i'm not complaining, i wont, i believe. use to it. 18+++ years i got such challenges every other day, this one wont affect much, it wont, i know.
RE: getting into singapore school, getting into cgs, getting into njc ...
all the choices are reall not planned by me, not FULLY wanted by me, but it just occur, and things do goes pretty o-kay. i wont be disappointed cuz i'm a frog in a well. everyday, the vision is just there, i saw what i see and i make the best out of it. yup. smile princess (:

life is really fair.
if there is yin, then there will be yang.
no doubt.
work wise has been pretty fantastic. making new friends, getting a du-ti (zhiyang - frm ntu accountancy year 2 intern, he called me "xi fu" instead of "shi fu", sometimes called me "xiao mei", always amused by me laughing at him, he said i'm 'adorable' just to make my day and let him get good grades for his internship), getting great da-jies (sherina, winnie - we went out for dinner one day, and nothing else can describe the whole thing! good food, good company), getting compliments (eunice - dr premkumar secretary, my xiao mei! has been complimenting my looks these days ... sweet aint it?) many more great things happen really. so is fair. yes, is fair.

been pretty hook up with silly old love songs. is like my voice box FINALLY want to open up or something. been singing non stop all afternoon. i'm HIGH and getting ditzy over the obvious lyrics, old romance is the NEW RED. going to miss the singing, the moves, the looks, the grins ... wonder when will i get to see the temple of your head flush red again :)
"Promise me, all you say is true. That's all I ask of you"
"Tell me when you will be mine?"
"Put your arms around my shoulder, whisper into my ears, i love you"
"I will buy you a diamond ring my friend, if that will make you feel alright"
"In the summertime, weather is great, its time to think of WOMEN!"
"Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker, wherever you're going I'm going your way. "
"Dream a little dream of me"
"Fly me to the moon, let me play among the stars. Let me see what SUMMERS like on Jupiter and Mars"

heh ... music just makes my spine tingles you see ...
been pretty obvious pattern, i adore musicians. really adore them (: high respect for ppl who feel their music, feel their dance, feel their art...

hopefully more ppl out there will start enjoying the arts and music and dance. is almost spiritual... yep (: feeling really great after another round of singing!

weekends here i come! hope it will be great and full of simple surprises ...

love, princess

"say the word, and i will follow you ..." ~ all i ask of you (phantom of the opera)

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;