wanna thank those who made my special day ever so special and meaningful :)
:: a BIG thank you to y'all ::

chen wee, debo, eng hong, fang jing, ferro,
frederick, hsiao wei, ilona, jaya, joanna,
matilda, pau ling, perk lun, regina,
rui yuan, shan ning, shao xun, shuo jun,
siew chien, steph, tien teng, tiffany, yuen ling

(i hope i din miss any1 out .. sry abt it if i do)
L-O-V-E all the memorable presents and birthday wishes :)

oh wow, 18 alr .. feel so old. lol .. but i can do lotta stuff alr .. hee!

• mum wans me to learn drivin soon. cool! but i noe she wont allow me to drive anytime soon or alone.
• accordin to princess stephanie, i can engage in karma sutra .. haha, i dont wan! lol .. na-ah, no DO! nope! dont pollute my innocent mind. hee
• sis wan me to drink tiger beer ... ew, but it's soo bitter. yucks!

well, i'm gg to look forward to being 18. YEA!

= Rihanna + unfaithful =

- Verse 1 - Story of my life / searching for the right / but it keeps avoiding me Sorrow in my soul / 'cause it seems that wrong / really loves my company He's more than a man / and this is more than love / the reason that the sky is blue The clouds are rollin' in / because I'm gone again / and to him I just can't be true

- Bridge - And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful / and it kills him inside To know that I am happy with some other guy / I can see him dying

- Chorus - I don't want to do this anymore / I don't want to be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door / I see him die a little more inside I don't want to hurt him anymore / I don't want to take away his life I don't want to be / a murderer

- Verse 2 - I feel it in the air / as I'm doin' my hair / preparing for another day A kiss upon my cheek / as he reluctantly / as if I'm gonna be out late I say "I won't be long. Just hangin' with the girls." / A lie I didn't have to tell Because we both know / where I'm about to go / and we know it very well - Bridge - 'Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful / and it kills him inside To know that I am happy with some other guy / I can see him dying

- Chorus - I don't want to do this anymore / I don't want to be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door / I see him die a little more inside I don't want to hurt him anymore / I don't want to take away his life I don't want to be / a murderer

- Breakdown (Verse 3) - Our love / his trust / I might as well take a gun and put it to his head Get it over with / I don't want to do this / anymore / whoa-oooh / anymore

- Chorus - And I don't want to do this anymore / I don't want to be the reason why And everytime I walk out the door / I see him die a little more inside And I don't want to hurt him anymore / I don't want to take away his life I don't want to be / a murderer - oh A murderer No / No / No / Yeah / Yeah

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wow ~~~

the past few days have been

interesting to many extent!

finally got fred a shirt hahz ...

when he wore that black version of the shirt ..

he look so gay ... ahem!

hahaz ... laugh my head off ...

but still ...

the story still remains as such,

NO WALLET FOR THE ROYAL LADIES ...

and we felt so poor while sitting at bugis junction food court hahaz :/

so me and manda going to start our STEPHANIE&AMANDA FUND!

apparently bing and willy also want to join .. bah! lol ...

its going to be SWAB FUND! the profit is split 70-30 :) hahaz ... lets see whether we will succeed ... hope nj ppl will pity us or sumtink :D

anyway ... i have this v v v v weird feeling,

i'm not sure myself ...

i dont understand why

i'm so concerned about this matter ...

i mean you are nobody really in my life! i hardly even talk to you

(or maybe yes we do talk .. but only on few

occassions!) but when the problem now divert to you ..

i become so affected by it ...

worry worry worry ... sigh!!!

how i wish i could open up to you! lol~~~ you wish -.-

trying v hard to erase this overly concern thought of you ...

i bet you wont even think of me -.- sigh!!

princess stephanie

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29th July 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMMMMMAAAAAANNNNDDAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!

hello hellow~~~

today is my mummy's birtday :)

happy birthday mummy!!!

hope you like the shaolin-temple-monk-bag

that we got for you :)

hope you have a memorable

sweeetttttt eiggghhteeen~~~!**

say "HI" to clubbing, alcohol

and karma sutra~ loollll!!!

my biggest wish for you is for you to be

happy ever after okay!??!? especially wif

D-O!

love ya alwayz ^.^

princess stephanie

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 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

pirates of the caribbean 2

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yipppeee

things are looking up i hope!

at least for me :)

haha the secret for my happiness???

dreams .. that occupies like 8 hours of my day ... while i'm sleeping of course :)

1. i had a dream of our class going for overseas trip to japan!!! woot~~~

so totally rawks larh .. and we have a goooooodddd time at japan's disneyland .. it was bliss :)

heard from my mother, she went overseas to japan when she finish jc too with her friends and with her own money!! how cool is my mum~ :) but nowadays .. how to go overseas wif frens with terrorist roaming wild and parents being sooooo protective over their children ... but oh well ... once i go US ... i may turn a little wild heh~~~ paris for one day, london on the other hee~~~

2. i had another dream of a shopping spree with my class at wisma atria and takashimaya .. so cool right? i really mean the whole class!! it was so fun ... and it was not even planned! we juz meet and poof we are having shopping spree :) hahz .. i wish i have the money to splurge :/

3. 3rd dream is a huge secret .. i cant reveal haha ...

4. the last dream i have last night is about me and my bf-to-be haha ... i still cant see his face :/ but he fetch me to school in his yellow lambourghini .. how cool is that!! woot~ haha ..

i'm such a dreamy princess ... but thank goodness for all these lovely and mysterious dream ...

had sushi for dinner today .. FINALLY ... haha :)

school work is pilling up .. but i'm not worrying yet ... that IS a worry haha ...

havent told my mum bout my bio results .. i scared she will flip! lol .. thinking of some stories to tell her why i got such bad result ... cant think of a convincing story yet ...

class photo is next week thursday!!! girls please look your best!!! and boys ... um juz be cool :):):)

love ya,

princess stephanie

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just some randomness ...

haha .. it's all smiles again!
gonna watch the much awaited
PiRaTeS of CaRiBbEaN tmr~
plus plus, we're gg to meet tien teng!
how cooooolllliiiooooooo .....
haha, lol, rofl ... dots dots dots!
MANN ... if he sees tis, he'll be sooo pleased & honoured :) hee
steph & i cant wait to see u!!!
we're gonna stalk u too ;)

btw, the latest paris hilton song stars are blind rawks!!!

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guess tis wk wasn't great for most ppl

read quite a no. of blogs cursing and complainin how lousy their days were. true true!

wow .. wat a hectic wk. everyday stay back till so late & stand so long till the varicose veins on my feet are so prominent! so many nites wif so few hrs of sleep till got headaches. mann .. but phew, it's all over

yay .. one down, dont noe how many more to go .. sigh!

i'm starting to feel more relaxed now ... thanks to some ppl :)

friday i laughed all my worries away :) it's been so long since i ever had that feelin

haha ... listenin to bing tok really makes u feel so smart lol.

his craps are super duper funny!

the 4 of us (reg, cher, neo & me) all were irritatin each other .. acting childish!

hee~ sometimes, even the simplest things can make one's heart feel lighter.

hope i can pass tis feelin to ppl esp those ard me who hasnt been feelin too good.

note: i dont feel like knowing anymore things. the more i noe, the more confused i get, the more xin luan i get .. argh .. pls .. put an end to this misery.

OOoo .. at nite was eclectic! thanks to everyone who supported us (shant name any1 in case i forget to mention some ... sry)

all the doors are closing
i'm trying to move ahead,
to break free from your clutches
be as free as a bird and
fly away to some peaceful place

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felt v troubled lately ... no specific reasons .. perhaps is juz pms .. hahaz .. been a loooonnngg time since i have THAT!

geez ... juz have another wave of moodiness ... dont feel like posting anymore
byebye

stephanie

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updates updates!!!

poor queen .. she seems so stress up! relax gurlfren~~~ we can always be free as a bird again!!!

haha ... and we still can continue talking bout DO and SY if we um ... become work partners at some place!!! haha ... that is IF till then we are still unattached .. lol!!!!

omg i'm crazy~~~

okok ... so my handphone number changed again -.-

my sister's genuisity! she played around wif my PIN and PUK numbers ... and boom! SIM IS REJECTED ... so got a new number ... go ask me for my new number *you will need it* :) hahaz!!!

this few days seem quite aimless ... nothing much to do ... so i spend my time sleeping ... like at 9 o'clock?! hahaz .. that is how my sis got to play around wif my phone -.-

okay must remind myself that prelim is coming!!! *but i juz finish studying for ct2!!! whines* oh well ... let'z juz work hard la!

so yesterday went for ETUDE31 ... see throngs of njc ppl in city link .. quite funny really ...

good job regina, neo, alex!!! i hope you all have a memorable night :) the whole event was okay i guess ... a few slips of notes but the pieces are definitely more diff than last year's ... the biggest boo-boo was the mc ... the guy mc .. keep saying wrong stuff! wat embarrashment!!!

oh ya! i want the pictures ok reg!!! must send me :)

so today went to shop again hahz ... life rawks when you know how to shop ... :)

got myself a ballet-shoe at so cheap! less than 20 bucks!!! good bargain .. and is the last pair ~~~ totally rawkz ... v pleased hee~~~

now on my shopping list:

1. sun dress

2. that cool dirty green/brown half 3/4 half full length cargo pants with funy belt from edc esprit

3. heels ... i got none at the moment

4. the much awaited wallet hah!

princess stephanie

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In short ... life is CrUeL!
just when everythin in my life seems to be gg well & smoothly, things had to change.
a 180 degrees drastic change. dang!
now my life is completely messed up.
in retrospect, i used to be tis carefree person ... happy go lucky, smilin all the time.
in contrast, my life is now fraught wif countless problems. arrr ...
i tink i'm gg to haf an emotional breakdown! i cant fight away the tears in my eyes. my mind is confused .. spinnin .. i'm dizzy, i feel lyk i'm gg to fall sick again. everytime i tink abt all these troubles, i get hot flushes. i dont wan anymore fevers! :(

everytime i try to rectify the prob, it's always end up fruitless.
i noe it's not beyond hope, but i've really given up tryin anymore ... wat's the pt rite? it only ends up the way it was b4. i'm afraid. i fear the worst. hai ...
why is it that when things are fine, sth haf to crop up & ruin it all
i dont wan2 experience anymore such stuff. it happened wif 3 ppl up to date.
i noe i'm not the one who is the real cause of the problem .. cause my other frens too experience these kinda stuff.
i'm really grateful to all those ppl who haf comforted me or cheered me up.
i miss the mg life badly.
i miss the times when everyone had no worries .. ever jokin
i miss the times laughin at each other, teasin abt SY and DO
i miss the times talkin freely wif yessica, fangjing, yuenling & other angklungnites
i miss the PAST.
i really wish everythin was back to normal.
no THIS, no THAT.
<<>>

my frens are emotionally stronger than me & i admire them.
ignorance is bliss. how is wish i am oblivious to all these kinda stuff. i wan2 be my true self again!

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hey eet eezz me agaiinzz (it is me again ... haha)

have a little chat wif my mum on wednesday night about me when i'm young ...

she said that she regretted sending my brother and i to taiwan 11 years ago ...

i was on my 7th birthday they send me and my 5 years old brother (then) to taiwan with my dad's big sister to visit my dad's big brother's family ... da bo (dad's big bro) house is located 3 hours bus drive away from the main city, taipei ... a small town, not much malls ... but living condition is fine ... and they have a huge park! oh well .. the purpose of sending both of us there is really a plan to get er gu (dad's big sis) a husband ... we lived there for 1 whole month .. away from mummy and daddy :/

oh well .. i always thought i'm a very independent girl since young :) v streetsmart ... or otherwise juz plain nosy/kaypoh/know-it-all/bossy ...

imagine a 7 years old girl ... now looking at those primary 1 students .. i tot they are plain babies ... lol! i use to think that i'm a big girl :)

anyway ... the regret ... was actually cuz i fall from a rickety swing and deformed my skull :/

yupz the back of my head has a huge bump ...

i rmb the whole incident like it was yesterday .. hahz

it was a dark windy night ... after dinner bo mu (dad's big bro's wife) brings me and my bro to the local park ... to play wif the swings ... the best swings i ever played actually! it can go all the way up such that the angle of oscillation is 180degrees woot~ it was dark ... the park is not lit at all ... stray dogs roam the place ... then suddenly one of those stray dogs charged at us ... and i was at my maximum displacement ... got scared ... i let go of the swing .. and wham!!! my head hits the big rock on the ground -.-

it was no big deal .. felt a little dizzy but i was fine ... bo mu saw that i was not crying and hence we played somemore ...

and then we went home and my head hurts ... but i didnt cry ... they boiled an egg and rubbed it on my head ... i thought things were fine ...

so yupz one month past ... and i went home ...

another month past when i realised that the bump on my head is really big ... it was THEN my parents know about the whole incident ...

my mother was super angry .. super super super angry .. she complained why they didnt send me to the hospital to check on my skull or even tell her about the incident! but again i didnt visit the hospital to check about my skull ... it was not THAT painful anymore i guess ...

so on wednesday night ... it all comes to light ... ask my mum why she didnt send me to hospital when she knows my head got a bump ... dont she want to check wat happen on my skull?

the reply: i really wanted to send you to hospital ... but i'm afraid about the thing that i will found out! what if the doctor wants to operate your skull! its juz as near as brain surgery!!!

then it dawn on me .. my mum's love for her children .. the impact that she must have! knowing her daughter probably have fallen from a height of 2 metres! head first mine you ... plus the rock on the ground doesnt help -.- imagine your 7 years old cuzzin ... gosh ... my sister is 11 this year ... i still cant imagine her falling down!!!

no wonder my mum still makes sure that when my sister sleeps at night ... she will put bolsters and pillows around her ... so that she wont fall ..

princess stephanie

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okay days come days go ...
that is life ...
met rika yesterday :) have a nice afternoon wif her and my sis .. we watch superman :)
things sooooooo fast change!
halfway thru our chit chat .. i rmbered she talk bout marriage and having kids .. wow ... we are reaching the 2- digit soon eh? but oh well ... i still feel young as ever
batam trip was quite a let down .. didnt get our WALLETTT!!!!! it cost only 9 bucksSSS!!!
its out of stock ... sorry manda :/
but otherwise the food was great ... we ate 5 days of CRABS ... i got diarrhea on the 5th day ... lucky me :) and we eat my mother's hainanese chicken rice for 2 days ... and some great fish on the second night .. woot
monday was a hurry back to sg cuz some belgian frens of mine come and visit ... went to esplanade .. eat NO SIGNBOARD SEAFOOD RESTAURANT .. heavenly .. i was not well fed that night ... altho the food is a plenty .. i got to serve the best parts to the guests of course -.-
oh well ... trying to live my day by day ... no stress no fret .. prelim in 2 months time woot~
ya i juz rawk as a princess .. i know .. i know (self-motivational talk heh) -.-

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Weee .. post exams fever is on & hot! :)
every1 i noe is partying (hard) ...

haha, thurs went to watch superman returns
the guy kinda choi ... hee!
choi guy = gay? no rite?! haha
but the show very lame n look kinda fake
the show only ended ard 12am .. great! all public tranport stopped.
in the end gotta ask dad to fetch.

steph now in batam .. lucky girl. can relax
& she gettin wallets too. yay!
2 days in a row, i got angklung pract.
so tired! head so groggy now ... i only had 8hrs os sleep for 2 nites. mann ..
the 2 days had been great though.
there's elaine, fangjing, serena, shou jun, yessica & zhonglu.
reunited once again :) ... tok so much, had great laughters.
so happy now.
sth embarrassing happened during pract, darn, i really hoped he din see anything. he was smiling too la. dont noe whether coz i smiled at him too or was it coz he saw. haiya .. shooots!

today, went to celebrate sis bdae. went to cafe cartel
smiles~ had great time
really missed those childhood days wif family ...
where we go for walks together,
sis & i count how many snails we see,
then dad throwing us literally in the swimming pool,
sis & i always sleepin in the tunnel slide .. etc ...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
or Saying nothing and wishing you had?

 - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;