i'm super excited when i wake up this morning :)

i was smilling!!! seriously!

tell you a secret ...

i have a glimpse of HIM again! haha

its super cool ... at long last after like 3 years not seeing him again ... i thought he would be gone ... but NO! he is there! :) i'm super happy okay!

and he is so sweet! so gentleman!

... open the car door for me and hold my hands

... graciously thanked me for the company

... he set up some anti-drug campaign in US!

okay ... i guess all of you by now will be super duper BLUR about what i'm talking about!

its HIM .. i dont know his name .. i cant rmb his face .. but BOY is he handsome! and he is quite big size, but not those rugby boys big size ... juz the normal handsome big size! and his hands are so warm, he got nice thick hair (not william's type tho), and really lovely eyes! ahhhh!!! i'm blown over my feet! *sigh*

it is HIM ... the ONE :)

we have some sort of telepathy or something ... the wonders of mankind!

but i'm a little sad too ... it takes 3 years ... just to have a glimpse of him ... when will be the next time i see him again?

princess stephanie

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hey hey ...

feelin so happy yet so tired~
today had NAPFA, it was a sat somemore
sigh :(

but, today i got to see how close all the girls were
haha .. we were all helpin each other
watever means we can :)
come to the inclined pull up station
all other class girls were pullin lyk crazy la
16, 20, 35, 46!!!! omg .. yet no one cheered
come to our class we were lyk .. 7, 8, 9, 11 ...
haha .. but our cheers & encouragement were the loudest!
mr tong said we sounded lyk pregnant ladies
gg into labour. lol
so happy ... completed NAPFA & helped lotta ppl
now all my muscles kinda sore. so lao pok .. haha

recently .. found some songs which i used to lyk
hoho ... wonderful! relive my past.
come to tink of it .. i really love JAP songs!
kansha kangeki ame arashi!

yest had some tok. whole night din do any work la.
dont noe how it will work out
let time takes it course ... yup ...

hee .. now gg to find pics of arashi ... cya! :)

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"hello!!!"

k k updates!!!

first of all, I HAVE GRADUATED FROM SMU!!!! woo hoo~~ super happy ... i took the exam ... and its quite manageable, the exam i mean. feels super good to AT LAST finishing this course! but i'm going to super miss the times there ... quite memorable somehow ... well, i know i will still see my SMU classmates around (SINGAPORE aint that big you know!)

oh ya ... as you all may know ... my family went overseas last week ... leaving poor princess at home alone ... i just realise how much i miss them! what happens then if i have to go overseas and study ... i will be super duper miss them!!! and i realised that my mum's food is the BEST ever ... i'm going to try not to complain so much about her cooking now :) *cries* but i guess if there are friends around too ... things will not be so bad ... and i totally want to try independency! cant wait to make more friends and meet up with my old friends ....

speaking of old friends, from their friendster's photos i realised how posh their lives are at the States ... so much play play play ... night parties, gowns, branded clothes and all ... i wonder whether i'm going to be just like them ... it's a bit worrying somehow ... i dont trust myself having the discipline to mug at home and i worry that i cannot click with such a life ... ON THE OTHER HAND ... overseas studies is really a test of independency and freedom-hood ... i mean, i really can do watever i wish! explore the world and learn the nitty-gritty about real lives! it will help me to blend into the adult's world i guess ...

well wish me luck then ... i super hope i will enjoy myself lots!

council elections ... this year is super drama i think ... but many of them sound too kiddy? not a leader that i will want to respect ... first of all ... i have this feeling that NJ student council are merely sai-kang ppl seriously ... there are 70+ of them ... yet do they actually LEAD? i thought being student council you are just like another student leader! you have to LEAD, INSPIRE, PROMOTE TEAMSPIRIT, BOND THE TEAM (SCHOOL) ... unfortunately they fails miserably ...

this can be seen clearly on the resentment that the student's body have on them ... hardly anyone stood up and said that the council have make a difference in their lives ... hardly any of the normal nj students actually bothers to cheer when the council lead them in cheers ... they are quite poor things too ... they have to host so many events ... doing the sai-kang works ... if they are truly the leader of the school they should lead the whole school in hosting the events ... and not just do it themselves! then we can see more assimilation of the student council and the student body ... again, i dont think 70+ councillors are necessary ... just get a few great leaders and thinkers (this also may not be applicable to the lousie elects ... -_-") sigh ... this is njc ... however, i really admires the CCA LEADERS AND EXCO ... i think they are the TRUE LEADERS in the school ...

next up ... softball ...

we lost to rj 13-3 ... quite sad actually, seeing that we REALLY can perform better than this ... i never thought they are good ... is US who are not concentrating that day ... i'm guilty of sleeping at parts of the game and forgoting to cheer :( ... i guess what is over is over ... this week i think i'm super weak (physically) my arm muscles and leg muscles deteriorated after 1 week of sick-rest-leave ... i have no energy at all ... i cant throw far, i cant bat, i cant run ... is super worrying ... WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!?!?! my mucles felt so numb and only warmth up after like 3 hours in the field?!

but this is not all ... what is even more worrying is that i realise ... my jc softball career is going to end soon :( 2 more games and taa-daa no more softball :( i want to remind all the softballers that this is nearly the end of season ... and only God knows whether fate will bring us and softball ever again ... so GIRLS, train hard okay? push to your limits ... for if you dont, there will be no more chance to play together again!

just for the LOVE OF THE GAME ....

ARISTLE!

super

duper

fantastic?!?!!?!?? now i know why our school dance groups deserve the GOLD WITH HONOURS ... they are really good! the chinese dance cheography is super fantastic, the malay dancers interpretation of the music is just wonderful, the indian dancers footwork and handwork is really jaw-dropping, and the latin-western dancers are just pure sophiscation! i'm jealous at dancers ... so flexible and free-spirited ... i wonder if i'm one of them performing on stage ... will my performance be as good? anyway i'm really glad that the dancers are v proud of their performance last night ... is really really good!

NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE THE BEAUTY THAT THEY HAVE SHOWN THROUGH DANCE LAST NIGHT! excellent!

another highlight of aristle is also perhaps seeing friends in their going-out clothes ... everyone looks so pretty and handsome! :)

the princess and queen especially happy that our ECs are around too!!! woo hoo~

today's gavel ... i thought i really did well as toastmasters of the day ... i'm surprised at my calmness and presentation skill heh ... however, of course, many improvements have to still be done!

hoping for a great weekend ahead :)

^*THe pR!n*cEs~s

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ok .. to satisfy the princess's demands ;)
sounds pretty wrong .. but nvm

i'm so glad it's almost over!
everything seems smooth sailing now.
i wasnt feelin real gd at e beginnin of e wk
but luckily things change for e better
*sMiLeZ~
though only haf of the wk has past,
i must say ... it's been quite entertainin.

MoN - searchin for the jersey again.
got no comments & some1 who might read tis
just reframe from tokin abt it anymore k .. thanks
neway, found out it's more efficient to shop wif guys than girls
tt day i found tis romantic scene ...
darn .. but DO wasnt ard. mann .. haha
that nite was 'scary' ... i dreamt of fred .. lol
haha .. i just rmb dreamin abt him wearin this PINK specs
super weird dream la. dont noe why i dreamt abt him too?

TuEs - the more interestin parts happened at the end.
during phys .. it started to rain
& there was lightnin & thunder.
i sat beside the window ... so i could see the bolts of lightnin
as though they could pass thru e window & reach me ..
so scary .. sittin beside steph din make it any better -_-"
haha .. she kept joltin .. makin me more nervous
& gave many small shrieks . bleah!
when i closed the windows .. some classmates cursed me
wah liao ~ say the window will shatter & fall on me
sigh .. lyk final destination. arh ...
then it was maths s lect.

teacher: "can i haf the 3rd row fr the back, first girl on the left to ans my qn"
ok .. yea so we tot it was serena ..
but dont noe why .. william started sayin ...
"me? i'm not a girl, i'm a guy ... "
!!!!!!! omg !!!!!! that was sooooo funny! haha
my stomach cramped up ...
i din noe whether the teacher really made a mistake or was it his mistake?
seriously ... i hardly laughed so hard ... enjoyed that feelin :)

WeD - super borin day!
the 39th council elects were givin speechs on y we should vote them
there we saw steph's EC - daniel ... actually he quite shuai leh .. lol
there was tis guy who actually cried after some1 ask him a qn
i felt so sorry for him. besides, i find him to be quite capable,
so i decided to vote for him. however, after that i found out that he did the
same thing at 2 other venues. omg .. wat a hypocrite! i'm not gg to vote him alr.
halfway ahmad came & took over serena's place. ahmad ar ... argh!
he says stuff tt gives me the creep & also make me fool my own self...
sigh, he made me slapped my own face la .. OUCH!
haiz ... i'm such a loser la.
yay! i'm so comforted to noe tt mr lim actually ask ppl not to bully me
tt day, the class was also very guai! most paid up $30 .. no delay.
wah, if only the class could cooperate lyk tis everytime .. hmm ..

after sch, mg girls sat together & tok cock .. haha, it was so fun la
i miss all those times. i even enjoyed myself today at angklung
the backrow ppl were havin so much fun & laughter :)
really miss those times mann .. i hardly laugh so crazily anymore.

then another memorable thing happened. my family went for dinner,
then we started sayin lots of stupid lame jokes. haha
my dad & mum were actually tryin to solve them. it was so fun!
i really love my family ... never knew we were so close-knit.
i also discovered sth: i found my younger sis very cute .. lol
that nite was priceless :)

how i wish these could go on & on & on ... but i doubt so ..
how i wish fj, sher, yl could be in my class .. but tt's impossible :(
how i wish for a lot of things! but it's all just wishful thinkin
i noe a lot of us may be sad inside, but we actually hide our feelings
puttin up a false front, smilin all the time.
how many of us can say that we're truly happy!?!?
i wish i was one of them ...

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woo hoo! surprise surprise

nope you didnt come to the wrong blog

is the queen's and princess's blog still!!!

only now is brighter and full of love and stars and hearts and red! haha

this is what happens when you are home alone ...

you do html stuff! wee~~~

pro-me actually manage to do up such a cheem html stuff! 3 cheers man!!!

really hope the new look will make things more NEW & PLEASANT?!

brighten ppl's day and stuff ...

hope to see more ppl smiling :)

*yes ... it includes you now reading my blog! SMILE PLZ!*

cant wait to hear all the "woooo!" and "ahhhhhs!" and "wows!"

so tag please!

i know previous posts the colour dont match the white background ... but its okay!

this is what they call a new clean slate!

oh yah ... and i found the old tag board .. where everyone is still lame and crazy ... hee~ so now we got 2 tagboards ... one for serious stuff .. the other one for stupid jokes stuff ... gd idea?

let me hear it!

the change of blogskin is also my way of inducing the queen to actually BLOG more ... her entreys seem to be depleting ...

oh yes ... before i end ... i want to say a huge thank you to the previous blog-builder ... our dArL~iNG eUnU*ch! no hard feelings i change the skin okay? is purely on lets say ... boredome-impulse ... the previous blog was excellent anyway! :)

cheers,

the html pro princess

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princess stephanie

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Yesterday was really a different day … visited coach in the afternoon with yawen … have pretty enjoyable time … coach is friendly and all which makes me quite relax and happy at her house … just that GUINESS, the dog, keeps licking my thigh!!! Yuck … but otherwise I have somehow pass the phobia of dogs I think … hehe!

But the vocal point yesterday was not the visit … but about something related to friendship …

Well today, in front of Wesley Methodist Church I thought about the whole episode … and I come up with some views … sorry if the my view don’t coincide with yours … this is just something I thought makes sense … lets keep the whole entry a relaxing and an open-minded one okay?

Yesterday, a friend of mine (lets name him/her : PETER … coz I don’t have any friends whose name is Peter) voice out a few concerns … peter is really having a difficult period of his life … being a student … he got many expectants from his teachers and friends etc ... but that is beside the point.
He voices out 2 concerns that I want to tackle today:
attention
work load stress

seriously speaking I think many youth today faces this kind of concerns … well I do know of a person who went through that – myself.
Many of the times you see your friends being praised … ‘excited’ upon by your other friends … then you feel dejected that no one bothers to actually notice you and get ‘excited’ upon … then you wonder … “what’s wrong with me? Why cant I be appreciated too? I really want the attention too … why then no one, not even my close friends do that for me?” some ppl will relate this problem to the problem of popularity and all … but I think that is not only the case, no doubt it feels super good to be quoted the best … to be always surrounded my friends who literally “idolized” you and all … the feeling is good … it makes one feel superior to some extent and also an ego-booster …
So, I always complained to myself … why cant my friends spend much of their attention on me? The question keep pondering me … is it coz I’m not talented enough? Not worth noticing? Not intelligent enough? Not gd-looking enough?
I literally give up … I tell myself not to force my friends to like me and all … then I realized that hey … my friends actually DO praise and stand in awe of me sometimes …
All these times, I was just blinded by envy …
Some things my friends say that are quite unnoticeable to me:
“waah steph … your hand is so smooth!”
“wow! I cant even think of that … you are so good in this man”
“you got long legs!”
“nice bag / top / hair pin etc …”
“you are in smu!”
if it is last time … I would just think that these are just passing remarks … but actually they do have meanings …
then there are my other friends who never really get excited or whatsoever in front of me … but I was pretty shocked when I know that some of my friends’ families do talk about me and all …

so peter, don’t you see … the feeling is good to be praised … everyone knows that … but sometimes perhaps you just got to stand back … and just enjoy the company of your good friends … many of us tell our parents about our day in school everyday over dinner or on the way home … and guess what!? My day in school of course revolve around my friends and also academics matter … you are really not forgotten …
sometimes also, there are friends who actually care for one another yet they don’t speak much … just like how old couples love each other dearly yet they do not specifically say I LOVE YOU everyday … because saying too much of the phrase makes it no longer significant …
just want to tell you … that your friends really care … and I hope the knowledge of that makes you feel more at ease …

work load stress … another headache … this one cannot be helped … everyone went through this … so much things … so much expectations … so much pressure … so much responsibility …
I thought about this too … and I conclude that … since I have taken the responsibility … I shall do my best … if my work in unsatisfactory … I will redo amidst the upset that I need to redo it again … one way to make the whole experience better is really to actually accept the challenge and enjoy the challenge! Treat the hurdle as a lesson learnt … at least at the end of it … you will feel a sense of satisfaction … achievement … that you did your best!

I wont deny that sometimes I still yanked non stop bout work load stress … but I find yanking away is a way for me to actually say out all my worries … and when I said out everything … I look at the work needed to be done and realized “ hey actually is quite manageable.” The whole pictures seems so much clearer then ..

I wont deny also that sometimes I still feel envious of my friends who I really think are damn smart, damn cool, damn perfect … but is only short term feelings .. coz I’m clear wat are my fortes too! And I do rmb what my friends praise me for last time … so share around the praising la … don’t be too selfish and want it for yourself only … I also start this regime to praise others more … in a way I’m trying to inculcate a praising-trend among my friends .. and hey it works! They praise me more for even the simplest thing (:
I feel good .. they feel good!

My writing may not make much sense … but the bottom line is I think you should do a little soul searching … appreciated the things that are happening around you … appreciate life as it is (:
Hope you will feel better after knowing that you are not alone facing this trouble ….
Please smile again …again …

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