hihi!!!
another relaxing week ahead i guess :) thanks to enrichment week yay!

anyway the weekend just rawk my sox!
haha
saturday ... went to pool wif YY then i go meet my parents at wisma eat xiao long bao!
then i go wif my daddy on a-father-daughter-movie-outing!!! so nice
we watch yours,mine& ours ... an old number ... but the content is still as good as ever!
it encourages me to get my dream of 24 kids!
yup its true .... perhaps i'm going to like have 4children of my own, then adopt the rest! so cool
i'm planning for chinese, japanese and korean children ... if possible perhaps also vietnam and cambodia
lovely kids!
living in harmony
so sweet
it's like .... you dont onli have a few ppl to love you at home ... but like another 25ppl to love you at home! so sweet! and i'm planning for kids of the same age .. so they can help one another to do hw .. be school buddies and also play pranks together ... haha!

then on sunday
me,reg,hsiaowei,jaya went to watch FAILURE TO LAUNCH!
love that kit-girl .. she darn cool ... wif her gothic looks and so good acting! haha
then my dad give me extra money ... so bought myself for the first time ever! indulgence .. in terms of clips . haha
pretty clips
wanted to spend more on them ... but i think i should control myself so in the end only bought 3 of them ... wif the intention to share wif my sister :)
anyway before that i went to eat ramen!!! at chinatown ... damn nice! shall bring more frens who are intereted haha ...
oh ya while we are towning ... we meet the shooters and also fuwei! then i intro reg and jaya to baking boys!!! is rawking sinful ... but we all love them!
then we walk bit more ... try out all the products at topshop and esprit ... juz enjoying our life as girls~**!

hee~~*!

nyway MONDAY or TODAY!
have a fun time watching anime at the range ... felt a little awkward .. but its ok i guess ... the range loves SAR! and will always welcome the royal ladies :)
then we play carrum at the student lounge ... aahhhh the student lounge need students to pay for the pool board :( in smu we like totally free of charge larh! and air con some more ... so posh and everything ... stupid why cant it be free
anyway we play carrum ... me and manda one team .. we pressurised each other!!! haha so fun
then we go to the aeromedical centre ... darn shiok! i took the turn table ride
quite exhilariting! thrilling! and my signal code is KINGFISHER! so happy ... but so dizzy
i felt the motion sickness at the bus ride home.
anyway trng is okay! rusty at batting and i got a swollen lip! thanks to my batted ball that bounce back!
found out that we are starting nationals at wednesday (oh no longer ... is saturday morning .. means no SMU! ... going to miss the big debate and the exam revision .. but game more important mah!)
so yup yup! cant wait for other enrichment courses!

the joke of the day
operator: dove, you are ready to fly. gd luck with your flight
me: *look at regina's tag"
regina's tag: PENGUIN
me: penguin cant fly!!!
me & regina: cant stop laughing!!!! ahhahahahhahah
*no wonder she dont take part in any of the rides*
haha!

oh yarh ... my dear 2 frens ... pls be nicer to each other .. dont be always at longerhead! wat happen to the lovey dovey 2 of you?!

princess kingfisher

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boo!

haha ... i'm done wif chinese exam! so come home .. expect ppl to be online .. but .. er .. no one online! except for bing and willy ... :( anyway! i'm super relax now ... yay!!! common test is over!

here is my evaluation of the ct:

1. general paper great essay bout feminism. doubtful comprehension. at the end of it, everyone was just BLUR ... haha!

2. biology again, nv really study for it. i will be SUPER glad if i scrap a B ... but C will do too i think.

3. maths my only hope. hope to retain my 80%

4. chemistry do-able paper ... i really dont want to see another O7 or E ... hope can have at least a B!!! i beg for a B!

5. physics another blur paper ... will be satisfied with a C

6. maths s amazingly i can do the paper. can pass i know :)

7. physics spa my heart breaks when cheryl say, "YOU CANT USE DISTANCE... IT WILL BE WRONG!" but i guess it will be okay ... i did write the proper format anyway, and my explaination does make sense ... so o-kay larh ... i shall BELIEVE in myself :) cheers for steph!

8. chinese paper muahahha ... the most slack paper i ever taken! the rest of the class are chinese A or HIGHER chinese ppl .. they wrote 10 pg essays ... we AOs write 1 piece of paper essay ... hilarious i tell you the sight ... everyone converse in chinese except the AOs ... i was thinking whether i can top the exam since only got 10 ppl around ... but i guess zweinstein will top it .. coz he got B3 and i got C5?

after the physics spa me, reg and hsiao wei crap for 5 hours!!!! really crap for 5 hours .. man .. girls can really talk ... we find out lots of stuff bout each other ... so fun!!! and regina keep pigging out for the 5 hours ... she leave the table to buy food 3 times! haha ... so pig ... lol! it was so fun laughing and stuff ... we didnt mug for our GP/CL .. haha .. we going to meet again this sunday i think .. going to watch big mama house! anyone care to join!?

anyway i think i should reflect on my softball tournament this march holiday ... well we won 2 lost 3 .. putting ourselves at 4th place = no trophy ... yup the whole holiday i was juggling between softball and studies .. double S&S! softball really help me relax after the whole mugging session ... and also make me forget whatever i have leant -_-" but i really enjoy playing with my team ... and looking at other softballers in the field! its like some sort of we-all-play-softball-kind-a-feeling!!! really happy and enjoyable ... sadly coach suz went for operation .. cant be with us for the whole experience ... yu mei and sharon take over from her ... both of them so cute! but i guess is different feeling altogether ... the coach / team cohesive feeling is not there yet ... i'm happy to say that my outfielders do improve this time around! yay! i'm the big mama of outfield :) so i'm happy that my girls improve ... really hope they can improve further for the nationals! is really important ... i really believe that my team can do it one lorh .... all the games .... if we push a little and look abit fiercer ... bet we will scare the whole of singapore! haha ... anyway, my dear softball gerlz ... love ya ppl!!!! thankz for being a great team in my heart ... really miss you all after one week not going for trng ... i hope i can do well in the nationals! ct over ... concentrate on nationals!!!!!!!!!!

love for the game sporty-pretty-princess :) [posted few days before this ...actually i posted this on the wrong blog .. haha! so here it is here back again at her own home]

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u wonder everyday,

at tis pt in ur life,

how much u'll swirl wif the winds of change.

u dream & u wonder,

& u dont believe,

yet know it all too soon,

tt u're being propelled towards ur new beginnin

wif each piece of memory u relive or future u imagine.

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>

u stop viewin time as the present moving forward

& devouring the future;

u rebel at its slowness

& yet at the same time,

fear its swiftness.

time becomes 2 things at once -

the conquerin present capturin the future,

& yet, the present conquered & captured,

& carried off by the past.

& u're weavin in & out of the pages of ur life,

all at once

desperately clingin onto fragments of yesterday,

desperately wantin to turn the next page,

desperately wantin to be able to stand still for a moment

to watch the world pass by ...

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>

u feel as if u're watchin

ppl disconnect themselves from u,

ur life & go away,

forever more out of ur reach.

mesmerized, all u can do is

... watch them & suffer ...

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>

nostalgia is the path upon which u tread,

sensin that life around u

is somehow changin,

not quite knowin how yet knowin,

not quite all too well,

that u'll return to find things different,

life having worn itself around the gap u left,

a life u almost wish to return to

yet u painfully know

u cannot.

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u realise, during those beautiful moments

u wish to cling onto,

that reality is no longer wat it was when it was;

it cant be reconstructed,

it cant exist outside of the precise moment

it took place.

u realise life is an unending series of unique wanves

crashin upon the shore,

one after another;

swash & backwash advancin & recedin;

here & there leavin traces of washes before,

inherently & inexplicably mixed together

yet never quite the same as the ones

that preceeded it.
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>

too soon, all too soon,

time is flying by,

& all i can do is

watch the world spinning past,

watchin it

& remembering ...

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THAT LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL :)

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yes! my connection is fixed ... at least a bit. i can only use the laptop but not the main comp .. sigh. neway, while i was exhuasted after studying all that org chem & felt lyk giving up, i came across this really BEUATIFUL story that motivated me to keep on going, no matter how difficult the 'situation' may be.

The Apple Story

In a great oak forest where the trees grew tall and majestic, there was a little apple tree. It was the only apple tree in the forest and so it stood alone. Winter came. As the snow fell to the forest floor, it covered the branches of the little apple tree. The forest was quiet and peaceful. One night the little apple tree looked up at the sky and saw a wonderful sight. Between the branches of all the trees, the little apple tree saw the stars in the sky, which appeared to be hanging on the branches of the oak trees.

”Oh god, oh god,” whispered the little apple tree, “how lucky those oak tress are to have such beautiful stars hanging on their branches. I want more than anything in the world to stars on my branches, just like the oak tress have! Then I would feel truly special!”

God looked down at the little apple tree and said gently, “Have patience. Have patience little tree.”

Time passed. The snow melted and spring came to the land. Tiny white and pink apple blossoms appeared on the branches of the little apple tree. Birds came to rest on its branches. People walked by the little apple tree and admired its beautiful blossoms. All summer long, the little apple tree continued to grow. The branches of the tree formed a canopy overhead as they filled with leaves and blossoms. But night after night, the little apple tree looked up at the sky with the millions, and millions, and millions - and millions, of stars and cried out, ”Oh god, I want more than anything in the world to have stars in my tree and on my branches and in my leaves - just like those oak trees.”

And god looked down at the apple tree and said, “You already have gifts. Isn’t it enough to have shade to offer people, and fragrant blossoms, and branches fir birds to rest on so they can sing you their song?”

The apple tree sighed and answered simply, “Dear god, I don’t mean to sound ungrateful, but that is not special enough! I do appreciate how much pleasure I give to others, but what I really want more than anything in the world is to have stars, not blossoms, on my branches. Then I would feel truly special!”

God smiled and answered, “Be patient, little apple tree.”

The seasons changed again. Soon the apple tree was filled with many beautiful apples. People walked in the forest. Whoever saw the apple tree would reach up, pick an apple and eat it. And still, when night came to the forest, the apple tree looked at the stars in the oak trees and called out, “Oh god, I want more than anything in the world to have stars on my branches! Then I would feel truly special.”

And god answered, “But apple tree, isn’t it enough that you now have wonderful apples to offer people? Doesn’t that satisfy you? Doesn’t that give you enough pleasure and make you feel special?” without saying a word, the apple tree answered by shaking its branches from side to side. At that moment, god caused a wind to blow. The great oak tress began to sway and the apple tree began to shake. From the top of the apple treem an apple fell. When it hit the ground, it split open.

“Look,” commanded God, “Look inside yourself. What do you see?”

The little apple tree looked down and saw that right in the middle of the apple - was a star. And the apple tree answered, “A star! I have a star!”

And God laughed a gentle laugh and added, “So you do have stars on your branches. They’ve been there all along, you just didn’t know it.”


Epilogue:

Usually when we want to cut an apple, we cut it by holding the apple with its stem up. But in order to find its star, we must turn it on its side.

If we change our direction a little bit, we too can find the spark that ignites the star inside each of us. The stars are right there within each of us. Look carefully, look closely, and you’ll find that beautiful star! :)

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recently, i heard a familiar song on the radio

& tot it was really nice & made lots of sense to me

though there are some parts which are not true

the rest do apply.

"I'm not a perfect person

There's many thing I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you (x4)

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you"

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current feeling: sick & tired of sch ...

in the past girls din get education,
now we haf it .. we complain instead
that's coz it's TOO demanding now
sigh ...
but most girls i noe, haf the same mentality as me! :)
why should we study so hard?
in the end, we'll get married & become housewives
all that studyin will go to waste.
even if we manage to secure high income jobs
bcoz of the education we received
it'll be at the expense of our families.
we'll neglect them :(
we cant escape from our traditional roles after all
reg & i were saying ..
we should just become those high-tech farmers
lyk those in new zealand
they lead such carefree lifestyles!
how we admire them.

gosh .. our lives are really mundane!
we spend most of our lifetime studyin
isnt it very boring & wont we get sick of it?
hai ..

on a lighter note, i rmb a msg sent to me by steph a while back
'women lives are hard.
morning wash clothes.
noon hang clothes.
evening iron clothes.
night iron clothes.
midnite take off clothes.
middle of nite find clothes.'
lol ... so lame :) haha ....

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hey there!

feel quite bored

tho i'm supposed to study :P

the week has been alright i guess

many ppl start mugging le

i'm trying to START ... haha

got my china result

c5

ok la i guess

counting i'm not v lucky at the multiple choice questions

apart from that i got new shoes~~!!

so AT LAST

haha

is new balance ... pink colour and my mum was bad mooding when i bought it

haha

hope the school allow the colour combination ...

so watch out for my shoes~!

i hope it can last for 2 years or sumtink

if not so sad

nyway .. dad today come from batam wif many Apple products amounting to lets see ... 28GB?

haha ... see whether i dare to bring them to school first or not haha ...

getting worried for ct

i guess i got to study ...!!!

stephanie jia you! dont get distracted :)

cheerz,

princess stephanie

p.s: study hard !!!

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the past wk has been rather eventful

MON: chem spa

TUES: gp lessons ... we toked abt homosexuality. perk, fred, beng hui & i had a LiVeLy discussion. well, the double period for that day wasnt exactly that boring as other days :) come physics lesson, mr lim was giving out sweets & chocolates. the whole scene was sooo funny. he took out a pack, ask 'WHO WANTS?' then as usual the (greedy) guys raised their hands ... & it was some play throw & catch thing ... haha, it was as though mr lim was feeding a pack of vultures that havent eaten for a long time. i pretended to smash reg's choc & she went 'arrrgh' spastically. diao!lol oh ... & before we each went our separate ways, i did sth which was out of good intentions, but steph tot more out of it. she tot it was really sweet ... haha, but i wasnt trying to be kae! lol ... she kept makin fun of me & threaten to blackmail me ... evil ...

WED: the day came & went in a blink of an eye. that was the day A level results came out! in the morning ... steph told me this theory which she tinks make a lot of sense to her. she was so smug abt it ... haiya, dont disturb me leh. lol. gp, held another interesting convo ... i spouted a lot of stuff which ppl tot were nonsensical, but made senseto me. during chinese, fred was very worried abt his results & william kept makin fun of his comical expression. however, when he found out his results, he was so relieved & started huggin william's leg!! omg ... obscene :) yay! i got a B3 ... satisfied! oh, then ashley bluffed me ... he said he wanted to commit suicide ... haiya

THURS: haha ... half day! yay ... the whole day couldnt concentrate.

FRI: end of the wk. lousy day .. forget to bring hp ... darn, felt so hopeless. started of wif bio lect - human repro system. the whole atmosphere was so weird. ever had such a lecture b4 - boys & girls. i tink i prefer it in mg when it comes to this kinda things. maths - ms chua had a stiff neck ... lol, she was so funny, lyk a robot. steph drew tis pretty flowery thing on my hand .. so cool, lyk henna :) bio - eng hong pulled my hair, & sHe saw it ... sHe tot we were foolin ard .. sigh .. after that sHe kept saying me. haiya. when dv room while waitin for parents. played shao xun's & william's hp .. so darn bored & felt out of place in there.

that day ... got angry at some1 too ... dont noe wat came into me. i'm really sorry. maybe coz i just woke up from a lousy sleep. i 'm really sorry for sayin all the hurtful words ... i was very angry ... dont noe why? why u always make me angry ar? i never get angry at any1 else. maybe coz i feel at ease to tell u abt it? but it's a bad sign ... this yr, i keep blowin my top. oh no ... i'm losin it ... i'm becomin more hot-headed ..i used to be real cool & patient b4 ... help! i dont wish to be lyk that anymore .. i always regret it afterwards. darn ...

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