BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE

Friday, July 07, 2006

In short ... life is CrUeL!
just when everythin in my life seems to be gg well & smoothly, things had to change.
a 180 degrees drastic change. dang!
now my life is completely messed up.
in retrospect, i used to be tis carefree person ... happy go lucky, smilin all the time.
in contrast, my life is now fraught wif countless problems. arrr ...
i tink i'm gg to haf an emotional breakdown! i cant fight away the tears in my eyes. my mind is confused .. spinnin .. i'm dizzy, i feel lyk i'm gg to fall sick again. everytime i tink abt all these troubles, i get hot flushes. i dont wan anymore fevers! :(

everytime i try to rectify the prob, it's always end up fruitless.
i noe it's not beyond hope, but i've really given up tryin anymore ... wat's the pt rite? it only ends up the way it was b4. i'm afraid. i fear the worst. hai ...
why is it that when things are fine, sth haf to crop up & ruin it all
i dont wan2 experience anymore such stuff. it happened wif 3 ppl up to date.
i noe i'm not the one who is the real cause of the problem .. cause my other frens too experience these kinda stuff.
i'm really grateful to all those ppl who haf comforted me or cheered me up.
i miss the mg life badly.
i miss the times when everyone had no worries .. ever jokin
i miss the times laughin at each other, teasin abt SY and DO
i miss the times talkin freely wif yessica, fangjing, yuenling & other angklungnites
i miss the PAST.
i really wish everythin was back to normal.
no THIS, no THAT.
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my frens are emotionally stronger than me & i admire them.
ignorance is bliss. how is wish i am oblivious to all these kinda stuff. i wan2 be my true self again!

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;