BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE

Friday, May 12, 2006

i saw this at yawen's blog ...
i thought of writing it too ...
the point of this is NOT to speculate which description is who ...
but just to let all my friends noe how i feel about them :) and thank my friends out there for all the love!

1. looking at you, helping you ... seems like i'm helping myself. you are the mirror image of that part of me who are insecure and full of questions. perhaps this is why i can relate with you so well. sometimes, you ask me things that i myself are unable to answer and then i learn a lesson of life. thank you for all your care and concern, thank you for being a friend who is always there. if the future parts our ways, i hope you can find the serenity and comfortability that i have found in my life (that part of me who is confidence of the world and the ppl around me), becoz i have confidence that you are strong and more importantly, the world loves you.

2. when you are around, talking to you seem like opening that dam inside me, very freestyle and relaxing. i'm not afraid to tell you anything under the world because i know you wont judge my character that way! you shower me with lots of sisterly love and you share most of my sentiments. thank you for sharing your life with me. the gossip, sadness, happiness, courage ... i really hope our friendship will never end. i will honour your trust in me as long as the sun rises from the east :)

3. i'm really jealous of you, not the bad jealous kind but the good jealous kind. your wit and intelligence and perception of life really amazing. you are a really fun person to be with. your actions, words, sillinest never fails to tickle my tummy. i'm sorry that i have intrude into your little secret and i'm sorry that for all the trust you have in me, i disappointed you in a few occassions ... nevertheless, i'm really happy to have you as a friend. come to think of it, with you around, my life seems to be more dramatic and exciting. i wish you all the best for the future really ... go find your happiness! and be more streetsmart ya?! :P

4. its really a surprise that you become one of my close friends ... the work of fate, i guess :) i'm sorry if i ever make you angry/frustrated/sad ... i didnt mean it .. really .... in my opinion, you are like a strong, independent girl, ready to take the crap in the world. but ... sometimes, if i'm not wrong, there is a part of you which wishes to express itself more openly ... well, confidence girl! when you think you are ready, Say It Out Loud your beliefs and thoughts ... cuz your friends here are waiting for that part of you to ease yourself in, so that more sharing of the heart can be done among us :) and dont worry too much about all the scandals okay? what can be done really? everyone just simply adores you! cheers my friend! ;)

5.you are like another surprising person that pops into my life ... oh well, destiny? haha ... :) anyway, i always enjoy your company (it is not you in person but just me in the head ... whatever it means .. so hard to describe!) i never get bored of you cuz you are just like the sky ... always extraordinary ... i really want to get to know you better, just as friends ... but you are always so shy. mind you, we hardly talk! sometimes, i feel quite hurt when you call me names or seems not to care (i know its accidents .. but ..) i know you have big dreams but i realised you have a certain weakness ... you seem to be lacking in confidence ... i guess, just trust yourself more .. and relax abit infront of strangers k ... hope that we can still keep in touch in the future!

6. you make me sound like a cold, hard bitch ... until now, i still cannot find myself guilty as you have accussed me of. it wasnt becuz of others, i 'dump' you but its cuz of your actions ... you seem to be wanting more from me ... with your emo side, i felt so pressured! i really hate that our friendships end that way. but watever, the past has passed. i meant it when i say good luck for your future endeavours.

7. you ... *shakes head* i think its very silly for you to torture yourself that way ... i dont understand why you need to act cool and do all those silly stuff! i actually want to help you ... but just say, i'm tired of such things ... actually you are a nice person you know ... my advice for you is 'dont try too hard', being nice and docile and lovely is equally a cool thing you know!

8. the epitomy of chapalaness ... :) thanks for spending time with me and opening up ... tho we hardly interact now ... just take care okay? you are a big guy, pls dont feel so sian diao everyday and let things around you to affect you so much ... thrive on happiness ya?! remember all my advices okay. smile and joke around or pig around the whole day :) i hope you will get over your love trouble soon ... i wish you all the luck! and i want to praise you for your strong love and dedication ... you are one romantic person! :)

9. i still rmb that morning, you came and break down infront me ... you say you are tired of life in singapore ... and then you left short after ... you are the nicest person i ever know, modest and mature ... i really respect you as my big jie! i'm gald that you find happiness overseas :) i just want to say how much i miss you to be around in my daily life cuz you are another person i trust so much ... you nv fail to give me good advices ... oh well, i know that even though we dont have the chance to talk for months ... when we meet we always act as best friends again :) i cant wait to see you get married actually!!! its true!!! i want to attend your wedding!

10. you sometimes suck up to me, you sometimes make me worry, you sometimes make me want to punch you, you sometimes make me want to adore you, you sometimes make me feel like shit, you sometimes make me feel respected, you sometimes get me into trouble, you sometimes ought to be slapped for your childishness, disrespect and utter egoism, you sometimes make me feel safe, you sometimes feel like a machine that will can take away all my trouble ... let me remind you that you are not a big shot. pls be more hardworking and down to eart. i know its hard to be you ... yet i want still to tell you that no matter what happens, you can always turn to me and i love you!

- I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;